I currently have three partially-completed chapters for NoFP, Team 8, and Out of the Darkness. I’ve hit a wee roadblock on NoFP trying to build up to a very complicated event that will throw the timeline completely into disarray. I’m also fully aware that if I don’t do it very, very, well, it’s going to kill the story. The reaction to a major event in Team 8 has given me a lesson in how vitriolic some people will respond to things they don’t agree with. OOTD is supposed to be my stress-reliever story, but I’m groping for better means to tie it all together.
My current position at work is better than it was a year ago at this time… I am treated a lot better, but I also feel an obligation to make the people who gave me an opportunity be successful. I don’t hate my job anymore, but it’s still a drain.
And finally, I’ve been having some physical issues that make sitting at a desk more than what I do at work rather uncomfortable. I’ve only recently been able to try catching up on my email. And if you have a fully functioning endocrine system, sing a little psalm of thanksgiving to the deity of your choice. When it messes up on you, it really sucks.
Is the story going to be finished? Yes. The major events are already outlined, I just have to fill in the gaps. I’ve also noticed a pitfall of really large-scale stories… one can become so anxious to keep everything straight and not forget any details that moving forward becomes problematic after a point. Maybe it’s ego, but I’d rather be slow as frozen molasses than turn out a chapter that gets a lot of “glad to see you’re back, but this wasn’t one of your better chapters, better luck next time” reviews. To be honest, I haven’t felt “on fire” to pound out a scene just right in a while now. Which sucks, to be honest. I think the finest composition I’ve done in the last couple of months was a little two-page coaching document I wrote for work. Bleah!
I apologize if that’s not the update you really wanted to hear. I don’t have any firm dates. I will probably release the next chapter of one of the above stories when I finish typing, read the last sentence, and go “aww yeah, that’s it!” Call it ego, call it not wanting to let people down, call it latent perfectionism… but I don’t want to release something that I can’t at least delude myself into thinking is good.